Injuries, injured, injure

Yupz, the title says it all. I am thorughly injured today during training session. I don't know what happened, but i do know that i got hit on my head, shoulders, back, knees and ankles. Man, sitting down and writing my blog is so painful. I cant look up straight neither could i bend my back. Sobz...

However, consolation for today is, i managed to be the top scorer of the day! Yeah! I was happy at my achievement for today, even though it is just a training session. Perhaps i just wan to regain back my reputation, after the loss which happened two weeks ago. Hoever, there is a price to pay for being the best, and that is injuries will look for u even if u do not wish for them. the first one i suffered was a headshot by a rebound that richocieted off the board. Wham! there it goes and i was stunned for a seconds. It hurts big time. Then came my fren trying to outrebound me but ends up hitting my shoulders. Well, i guess i am just unlucky. Rebounds is a taboo to me now! Ha! i have that invisible phobia after today, reason being that i sprained my knee yet again for a stupid rebound. ha!

tml is going to be boring day for me yet again. Why do i say so? Reason being that i am having nothing to do except to eat sleep and watch tv. What a bummer lifestyle i must say. Hopefully i can gain some weight over these period. Well, i might drop by the gym for some easy arm exercise tml, no running of course. I need a job desperately! Argh!!!!

damn!

blog is not working again!! why??

Enriching nite!

What a day it was for me, although there was a few things that dampened my mood that little bit. Angeline was astonishingly pretty today! Ok ok, i am not some tigo, but i must say she really have a wonderful body, and that brought out the whole gown's unique quality! I almost fumbled at today's dance, but i was lead back on by angeline. She is a good dancer and of course, a beautiful partner.


I must say, i am a bit shagged out today. Imagine waking up at eight in the morning and only returning home like twelve? Anyone will feel tired. I went to the book fair with a few of my spsd frens today. It was pretty boring i must say. There was no books that caught my attention apart for this basketball hop that appeared in my eyes at the corner of the book fair. I asked joan to accompany me to the basketball section. well, u know, the hop wasnt that tall and so i attempted to dunk. Ha! Guess what, i over jumped the hop. My hand went all the way up, the hop was too short le and as a result, the hop almost toppled. So paiseh la!
Then as usual, we went walking a bit aimlessly and kill the time till it was time for me to go.

Ok, i was late, late as in i reached angeline place late. However, the situation was all under control cause i had booked a cab before hand. Ha! I won be able to forget today! ha! I mean though it is not the first time i had been intimate with angie, but the dance was so sweet, so amazing. I never knew holding someone that u like and dancing away can be so magical. I lost track of my surroundings during the dance, all i know was to look into her eyes! Did i mention i almost melted? yupz... my heart did. It has been a while since i had such wondeful feelings, since weizhen torn my heart apart. i am glad that i had found such a nice girl, even though i am not sure if she feels the same way as i do. I could still remember what angeline saID to me during the trip: "ivan, even if she doesnt wants u, that doesnt mean others will do the same. At least i am not one and i am here for u.

HA! i can sleep sweetly tonit!!

Mixed feelings

I am feeling so freaking vexed up now. What was meant to be a happy day for me tml will turn out unhappy for me. Why? Reason being i was reprimanded by my parents for opening a new line under starhub and they had amde a big fuss out of it. I can understand their concern for me, but, still i felt it was a bit too much. i mean, it is true that i had not made payment and the letter came to my house but so what? I can always pay later. It is not that i won have any cash to pay but because pple owe me cash that disallow me to make my payment asap. whats more after buying the gown for dear angie, i am left with mere peanuts in my account. Right, so now the whole family says i am the inconsiderate, immature child that doesnt know what is right and what is wrong. What the hell lor!

I feel like a ballon that has been inflated and deflated in the air. This feeling sucks big time. Even though i had angeline's confirmation that she is going tml and we will be having a great time, but, this scolding really came at the wrong timing. Whats worse is my Dad threatened to confiscate my phone if he finds out any other thing. Argh!! Why starhub so lousy one! Sianzz.....

lousy.......

nothing much to say tonit, i got bad results. i hate myself.

Broke, Ha!

Okie, lets see, i finally gotten my haircut done by my hairdresser Sam and well, i spent $30 for a simple haircut. Dinner was simple with laksa, wat else can i eat besides thAt?? i Am broke ma. haha... What a boring day it has been for me, i was bored to my tears. A sigh of relief came for me when faith asked me out to go do some window shopping. Argh!! this time of Bummer lifestyle must end!! Ha!

For three hours i went walking around Orchard with faith. Orchard is boring! I almost felt the whole place is the back of my palm. looking back, i have been there almost everyday. So sian right? However, the crux of it is, Faith is one of the most experienced shoppers around and shopping with her never fails to lift my mood up. I tried some clothes on, but felt so disgusted cause of my stupid hair!

right, wat about dinner? Well, since Faith has to go off, I went to look for Joan to have dinner. I really have to thank her, cause without her aid, my hair would be still as long as ever. Laska was quite nice, except the fact i still dislike "ham".. yucks..
I feel so fresh now, with lesser hair on my head makes me feel so much cooler after all. It was such a hassle having such long hair! 3 reasons why it was irritating:

1) wax runs out freakingly fast! It cost my $25 a bottle!
2) Requires extra time to wash my hair
3) Requires more time to style it! So mafan!!

yupz, so as result of this, i told Sam to give me a short haircut. True enough, i have such short hair that stands up by itself. Haha!

a child no more....

Responsibility is an inborn attribute of every human being. It is important to practice it frequently. However, i guesed i made my parents sad, fact being that i was not very responsible towards my actions. this resulted in them getting worried for my safety for the past two days. Indeed, i treated the home like some hotel, coming back only to bath and change and disppearing the moment i had changed my clothes and gotten my stuff. For these past few days, i had only stayed at home for good half an hour. My dad told me today: son, do not treat ur home like a hotel. I felt guilty....

Guess what, i went to chiong again, yet again yesterday without any single minute of sleep. Not just that, i indulge in absolute vodka and flaming lambo, making me a pauper in less then three hours. Now then i know why i have big holes in between my fingers... Cash is never my good fren, ha! I think i have gone sa bit mad these few days. gastric pain and alcohol is still pouring into my poor stomach, sigh. Maybe one of these days i should ask debra, zihui, layling, desman and all to go chiong again... its pretty fun dancing with them! ha!

I went to see angeline today. Both of us had a real fun time walking around orchard and of course, not to forget the most impt thing: food!! I went with her to Crystal jade today, along with a few of my frens for a sumptous meal. Man, u know what, the unexpected happened again: Gastric is back!! I cant seem to eat anytthing, each time something goes into my stomach, my gastric pain will be torment my poor soul. Excruciating pain!!

Angeline was so funny today. I brought her all around heeren and wiama shopping for clothes. guess wat? She was so stunningly beautiful when i asked her to go and try on a gown! Well, i am having a dinner pretty soon, so i asked her to be my dance partner! ha! She thought the gown looked veri ugly, then almost went back straight in to change again. hahahaha!! so funny, her facial expressions. Then of course, i am buying her a gown. Look forward to that day!! Well, in the end i brought her to Flamingo Bridal. Hey Hey, i brought her there to see gowns, but not wedding gowns. So in the end i chose a real nice gown for her, she tried it on, it was NICE! She felt that it was too expensive and so she rejected it, i did not force her as well. But, haha, i planned a surprise for her, ya, i ordered it and i have it sent to her home. Wonder what will she feel later when she sees it. Guess it will be one week before the gown will reach her place ba?

k la... i damn tired liao... no mood to write le.. nitez everybody!

tired, real tired....

phew... damn tired... not sleeping after chionging at night with a few of spsd frens, took half of my life away. I am really old, body is so freaking rusty... hahaha... Look at me, old liao. To tell the truth, i dun know if i shold be happy or sad that all of them went with me to the chocolate buffet. Ha... Spent a lot!! ha!

i was surprised at how debra drank alcohol, it was as though it was plain water, but of course, she was so dizzy after that. Imagine, i was damn worried when i saw those guys getting so close up to her. Well, no guys at clubs are of any good, oops, am i referring to myself also?? haha, i dun know. anyway, was glad that all of us danced to our hearts out, been a long tie since i last enjoed myself at a club .

Angeline cAME back tonit, but, strangely, i did not go and meet her despite her messages to me requesting to meet up. ha! i guess i really made her sd today. Bad Bad me. i am uncertain should i make my move to get close to her a not. part of me is feeling veri scared, weizhen is still strong in my heart. Anyway, guess it is time i drew myself out of SPSd, not because the people there is not nice, or i dun like being with them, but, i have reasons that only i know. Some reasons that made me feel so stressed up each time i go for anything related to SPSD. just wanna say thanks for knowing all of them though they could not hear wat i am saying now. I will probably quit NDP, even though it is not my principal to do that, but, i guess i dun have much choice as well.

gtg le... Morning!! haha!!

tears....

After watching the anime, i suddenly realise that i still could not let go of that feeling towards weizhen. The liking is still strong here, deep down, cant let go at all. I feel so depressed and upset suddenly, i mean, i am trying so hard to forget about her, trying to start al over again. BUt, why, why am i not being able to do so??



Tonit, tears flow freely........

Girls~

Ha, another day passed again, and i am still rotting like a tomato. HA... Finally, i had wat is called a decent meal, yupz and i do mean decent! How bout this, a nice plate of seafood e mian, served along with a nice plate of chicken chop rice, ended wth a nice cooling bowl of ice longan topped with delicious nata de coco. Look at that! Sumptous!! Yummy!!

Alright, back to the topic again, as i was saying, Girls can be so fun to be with but yet, at times it is a headache to be with them as well. Why? well, basically because i came across a few incidents that changed my perceptions about girls. there are basically four types of girls which i derived:

-Cute Girls-

Dun really need a description, do they? Well, cute girls are girls like angie, yujie etc. Cute on the outisde, cuter in the inside. They know how to presnt themselves well, as well as being cute at the same time.. hahaha....

-Naughty girls-

Naughty girls? Well, my baby cousin fits in. Such a naughty girl she is man, came into my room without any notice, took my dearest Sony Headphones and tore the cotton part of the earphone!! Could u imagine the blood that poured out of my heart?? i could feel her literally tearing my heart.. next time i shall spank bad janey in her bottom! HA! Am i evil?

-Bad Girls-

Girls who give kisses and hugs to strangers in attempt to hook for a free drink or mug them of their riches. Bad, bad, veri bad!! My fren almost thought i was a loose guy when a girl came smooching at me during dirty dancing at SOS. sigh, wat have gotten into girls nowadays?

-Special girls-

girls that are unigue and there are none like them at all. so far, i have only came across one special girl, and her name is angeline! special always in my heart!

yuup! basically thats it, summing up for today. I guess i do have a speedy recovery! Judging from the amount of food that i have eaten during supper juz now with joan and layling. Hmmm, almost forgot, i was supposed to share with joan m bitter six year relationship with this girl name weizhen. Typing this name reminds me of all the little little things that both of us been through. From the first time i said to her, I love u, to the time she said back to me, "Sorry, but i dun think we are suited for one and other", many things have happened. Well, to be honest, i was pretty depressed for a period of time, especially after she said those unkind words to me. It affected my exams so so much!! looking back, six years passed, till now, i guess i did not grow much in terms of spiritual development. wat pains me the most was the way she treated me after i waited for her for three long years! i did not change my heart, never have i once fall for another girl, but such is the truth of life. However, one consolation, i found angie, someone real special to me, and i hope i would not get hurt again, not anymore i hope.

LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME!!

down down down

YUp, as the title suggested, i am down with fever. not just that, all the past accumulated illness came back all at once! my god! Could u imagine how jia lat i feel now? I feel like a piece of rotten tomato! Ha! took me so much energy to wake up, sit by this com and write my blog. Phew, i guess i am old.

i feel so sad! I made a pact with angie that we would go and enjoy ourselves in malaysia, but the looks of my body condition and my face, doesnt seem very much positive for any overseas trip. I missed her so so much!! Sigh....

Dun really know wat to write, all i know is i am feeling so freaking hot, weak, coughing, shivering and all sorts of funny symtoms. Damn, should have taken care of myself when i could, wished i had listened to my friends advices... I hope i can recover in time on friday, even if i cant, at least bless me with the strength to go out. I really hope to be able to fufill the chocolate buffet outing. i mean, not just for myself, but for everyone as well! Just hope that everyone could have some fun...

alright... this is it, i cant go on... my head is too painful!! GTG!!!!

phew... finally, a good night rest!

Phew, never knew my body has grown so freaking weak over this period. All i know for the past one over week was to play and play, and seriously, i have neglected my poor body. Sob Sob... But, hey, now comes the time for me to take a nice good break from all the hectic lifestyle and enjoy a cooing night of sleep. HA!

Just came back from supper with my SPSD frens, i did not ate much. In fact, all i had was some miserable Longans and a nice cup of beer(though it really sucks big time). I kind of marvelled at the change that has gotten over me these while. Many people say that i have become a bad boy, one that always go clubbing, picking up girls, indulging in alcohol and stuff but the undelying thing is that, HEY u dun knoew me well so stop judging me! ha!

i guess i had got to know layling, joan and a few others better. In fact, i find layling a veri nice and sweet girl, but too bad, there is no frequency between me and her at all. i just find it so tiring going after girls nowadays. hmmmm.... maybe my pms is acting up on me now! ha!

Suddenly, there is this lack of confidence that hit me in terms of my freindships with the SD people. I feel veri insecure, in the sense that i do not know if people do welcome me a not, or they are just playing along. Ha! Maybe i am thinking a bit too much. well then, time for me to hit my bed, i am just so tired today!

Life Sucks

Morning... Damn, my head still hurts from last night. Well well, i really have to admit that holidays are the worst point of my life. Not only is it boring, but it takes up a hell lots of cash as well. All at the expense of myself! Damn, the drink yesterday was quite good, however, the price tag that came to us was a shocker. That was lots of money me, angeline, michelle, and a few others had spent! haha.... i guess i should cut down on my night life, i am ill anyway.

As a nice guy, i sent angeline home last night. i din expect her to invite me into her house, well, it was kinda embarrassing though. I mean, i felt pretty uneasy. As usual, we chatted till this morning and both us juz fell asleep on each other. Haha, and guess what, when her mom came into her room, she was like " 0_0 ", staring in disbelief that i was in her room for the whole entire night! Ha!

i guess angie knows how i felt towards her, despite me not saying a thing at all. but, somehow, i jus feel so uncertain. Could it be because angie is also widely popular among guys that gave me this sense of insecurity? I don't know seriously! But, one thing i do know, she is cute!