Love and Openess

HAha, i hope there is such a word as openess. I am just so lazy to go and check the dictionary. I spent the whole day talking to jian fu about a lot of things but mainly love and openess is the thing i stress about a lot. Indeed, true love drives all fear away and only by being open to people and the world around u can one make changes in his or her life. True, how true indeed.

I begin to think a lot today, espcially people that are precious to me during this period of time. I came to terms of how fortunate and blessed i am, not because of how rich i am but rather all the frens and people that are around my life throughout this period of time. Though i hurt a few but they are still precious to me. I just wan to say i am real sorry to weizhen and liyi for hurting them last few months. Especially to liyi, sorry... sorry... I failed to be my part as a bf to her and caused hurt to her even wen she sacrificed a lot for me. Memories will forever be etched in my mind.

At the same time, i am also veri grateful to frens who stood by me and have built a much stronger frendship with me. My frens since young like angeline, amanda, xy, matthew, weizheng, wilson etc. Not forgetting frens from my secondary and my JC fens as well... People dfrom SAjc, Jurong JC: weiting, layshan, guan rui, desmond, weiguang, etc. YUpz, and i am glad that i have becoame more and more open and truthful to myself over this period of time. i am able to mature and grow, to learn how to have good human relationship with pple. Just wan to thank God that i have found a new batch of frens, and they are my frens from SpSD. Though i am not close to everyone in there, but i must say i have found a few frens who i can tok heart to heart. Or so i think... hahaha! Hmmm, lets see, they are layleng(spelled it right finally), jianfu, joan, kelvin.

HOwever, the person that cuased the most change in me during these few months wa ANgeline(not the church one... pls). Is it the poweer of love? i dunno, but i know that i cant afford to lose her at this current juncture. It is not that i have treated her as my everything, but just that she is someone real special and someone who i will wish to spend my rest of my life with. Ha! Am i thinking too far? haha... As said, love is powerful, love is the basic of all humans. Love drives out all fear! ha!

Hmmm, think i should just write this down as well. I dreamt of weizhen last night. She seemed so demure and pure. I was kinda awed by the presence of her. Both of us were standing in a MRT train. I wanted to call her name, but find myself having reservations and did not speak. What happenes next i am not sure. My dreams are always like this, being unable to recall everything when i wake up in the morning. It just feels like an old movie playing, with errors in the middle. Which is why i enjoyed sleeping so much SOMETIMES.... I like to be in a movie... hahahaha... Well, i can only remember bits and pieces. At last she left, i wanted to stop her but stood rooted to the bloody ground. Next thing i knew it?

I am awake. Bleh!