long and boring day....

what a day man, i am down here in the com lab typing and trying to update my blog. Well, i have not done it for sucha freaking long time. YUpz, i went over to k union with milo yesterday. However, it was such a disappointing day for me yesterday. My voice sounded like a toad and i could not even sing some of my favourite songs. damn, i guess i should just resume my lessons for vocal and singing. so sian lor... now then i relise how freaking thin and how lousy i am wheneveer i am inside an air conditioned environment. My mouth was literally trembling as i struggled to sing finish the song. Milo, hope ur ears still okie ya!

what a hilarious hair cut i had! after singing i decided i should go for a hair cut. It is now or never. However, my dearest sam wasnt in to do my hair cut. So i decided to go over to white link for my cut. What i did not forsee is that i actually fell asleep! And the worst part? I told my hairdresser to give me a "reasonable" Short hair cut. GUess what she did? She grabbed a pile of my precious hair and went "zipp"! My heart bled when i woke up to find my hair standing up by itself without having to even apply any wax! Argh! Bad bad....

Angie broke into a series of hysterical laughter when she saw my new hair style! She said i look like a little boy!! What the hell!! Argh!! Next time i shall stay fully awake for any more haircuts!

   

myself...

when i set myself to do something, i will do my best... but studying IT has taken away my confidence. i feel lost in this semester. I feel myself getting moody easily.
-Sad-

Bgr is tiring...

Indeed, i am so tired out by all the commotion lately. It seems like my life has become veri inbalanced just so suddenly. It is not that i find it a chore to take care of my gf, in fact, i enjoy going over to accompany her. But somehow i just could not get ample amount of rest that my body is in need. oh well, maybe i shall just skip school today and go home for my beauty sleep! ha!

Saturday's NE show was simply fantastic. I would say B2 is one of the most enthu group around! Ha! The guys were all cheering and singing and jokin around after the whole NE show. I was pretty amused by them. Ha! To see the success and to share the success of the whole NE show was just another encouragement to myself that all the hard work that we had all placed in these times were not wasted at all.

Sometimes a woman just like to complicate things. No wonder they say guys are from Mars and girls are from Venus. Hell true! It was her who broke my heart in the first place. It was her who made me wait for 5 years before telling me that all is impossible between the two of us. She said she loved me but gave me nothing. So why is she trying to make me feel guilty? Am i suppose to be the bad guy now? This is all just damn stupid!

All that i wan to do now is to devote all my time towards angie. She needs me at this point of time and i need her myself too. She is the one for me, and i believe it so deeply in my heart.

there it goes... there it goes again...

Okie, i am broke once again, but hey, this time it is not me that is on the spending spree but rather it was due to immense amount of cash i poll out to help angie with the repairs of her poor car. Hmmm, maybe u might think that i am a bit crazy to go to such an extend to help her but i feel that it is my duty as a boyfren to aid and help her whenever i can. After all, the car was bought under her, and her mum did not even help her a bit. my poor angie has to pay everything all by herself.

However, consolation came when i found out that she could get compensation from the guy that caused her this fateful accident. i was pretty happy cause at least my poor gf dun need to spend so much cash. She is not even working now and so money is pretty tight for her. Well, i still feel sad lately each time i see her, but each time i am there by her side, i feel that both of us has grown strongedr in our relationship together. ha...

hmmm, but i still feel so down. I really wonder when can i ever save back the cash to show my mum that i did not misuse the money in my account. I am nearing to less than two hundred left in my poor account. i didn't realsie that repairing a car would cost as much as a few thousand dollars. okie, not to mention of course the insurance company which we could claim back part of the hefty sum of repair fee we have to pay. overall, it is still a thousand and above...

i miss my palm tungsten e so so much. Ha... I am toking nonsense again...

Settled...

alright, it has been such a long time since i last updated. Well, basically, i am stripped of the chance to use my dearest desktop, due to the fact that i have not bought my funiture. Yup, i am broke and therefore, furniture is out of question, and so, i cant set up my desktop. Life sucks totally without a computer. It sucks!! Ha!

I still feel sad even though it has been a week since i moved from my old house to the new one. guess wat, it actually took me three good days to get a good night rest. It just feels so funny to sleep in a whole new environment. HA! The irritating part is the packing up part.

Things wasnt smooth sailing for me at all. Just as i was going to find my girlfren on thursday night, she got herself into a serious car accident which renendered her bedridden. Sigh, she has got a fractured arm, along with cuts and other injuries. My heart bled when i saw her in the hospital. which was why despite being veri tired each day after school and ndp training, i will still make the effort to travel to NUH and take care of her. I know that Angie is in a lot of pain, and the pain killers are not working at all. Each time she knows i am coming, she will force herself to smile and put up a flase front to reassure me that she is alright. It really pains me to see her because i know that she is in a lot of pain. i cried the day when i saw her for the first time. eating was difficult for her as she could only move one arm. Of course, if i am there, feeding her is a must. i dun wan her to move and injure herself. sigh, as her boyfren, i felt so useless that i cant do much for her apart from staying over there everyday, accompanying her and toking to her. Even visiting the toilet was difficult for her. Sigh....

I feel so down....