anger

I am going crazy... angie has met with a mishap... argh!!

just as things are falling into the right track, my good fren, or what it was in the past actually hurt angeline. That fucker, not only did he caused a permanent mental scar in angie but he also hurt her physically!! Yes, he almost raped her. I was in a complete shock when i reached the hospital yesterday night. I could not beleive that this has happened and it is actually my gf that was involved. Angie was in a state of shock and she would not stop screaming whenever she sees someone enter into the ward. It was the first time i saw her went mad. She could not even recognise me. My heart bled. I cried. I dunno what to do. No matter wat i say, she would not respond. she just cuddled herself into a ball on the bed, crying, screaming and thrashing her limbs wildly whenever someone gets close. she could not even recognise me..... not even me.... why.... why.... i dunno... i cant stop crying, just cant... i couldnt speak, cant even get myself moving, the docs gave her two jabs to stabalise her. i went into shock myself. First thing that came to my mind was to find that fucker.

i sense the anger in me building up. i feel my hands crying out to me, telling me to kill that fucker. i feel like i am going crazy. i had never lost my cool before, not like this case. i dunno what i will do once i lose my own sensibility and senses. angie, will u pls take a look at me?? pls for god sake, i am calling out to u!! i cant stop crying... why mus this happen?? why!!??