Wednesday

I regretted my actions yesterday towards my mum. Somehow i wasnt able to control my own temper and i shouted at her over the phone. Hmmm, guess i am a bad child afterall. i did not return home last night as i just could not bear to step into the house. Firstly, i wan to avoid having another clash with my mum. Secondly, due to the lack of usage of internet, i had no choice but to make a trip down over to angie house. it has been a real long time since i last accompanied her. i guess i had neglected her quite a bit.

Angie is on her way to a speedy recovery And this is something that has really lifted my mood up. She tried hard to cheer me up, and well, just looking at her lifts my spirit high. She looked real cute last night wearing that braggy pyjamas of hers. angie is a girl that is so cute yet fragile like a piece of glass. Which is why i cant bear to do anything that may cause her to be unhappy. She was quite surprised by my turn up last night as she thought that i would be over at amanda's place. I was really glad that she understood my intentions of going over to amanda's house. Her understanding was so much appreiciated.

As usual, we talked and chatted till late in the night amidst my project which i was rushing over at her house. i told her how i felt yesterday after toking to liyi the other day. to tell the truth, i am still unable to heal completely from the break up between me and liyi. Liyi looked real weary the other day when we met up. it really tore my heart apart to hear how she has been doing. Her results has been slipping from what i knew from kel... i really hope she could pick herself up for there is a lot of other good guys, pple that are much much better than me. Liyi, do u know how much i wan to say "sorry" to u? i din meant to hurt u in the first place but if nothing but pain is going to come out of this relationship, i would rather end it.

will i ever have another chance to be good frens with u again? i dun know. i seriously dun know. All i know is to write down my thougts that has been in my mind all this while since we broke up.
I had once loved u real dearly, however, i realised too that what i had for u was more of a sister to a brother relationship. i really wan to hug u and tell u in ur ears all my thoughts, all my regrets but i know that it is impossible. Sorry for everything that i have done.

Forgive me... i am sorry...