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she said it, i respect her decision. I din wan to but i told her it is ok. She did not say anything else except a sorry. my tears have answered my heart... i dun know what to say to her at that point of time excet for agreeing and telling her to take care. I was pretty much stunned at what she said. i messaged a few of my frens, wanting to tok to them, but to no avial, din mange to.

it suddenly dawn on me how lonely and helpless i can be when i needed help. Joan was there to help, and not that i dun wan to tok to her about this, but somehow, facing her, i just cant speak out my agonies. messaged four person last night, only two replied and these two is none other than my sun nu and joan... guess i should be happy that at least they still replied... i am sad... real sad....

relationships never have an affinity with me... maybe i am not suited for any.... angie... if u ever come to my blog... i juz want to say i am waiting... will be waiting...

love u...