she's confused....

i went over to harbour front to find her yesterday. and guess what? i actually told her everything and naturally i told her that i hope she would giv me and herself a chnace... though chances seem so slim, i decided to tell her honestly. because i feel that if i do not tell her, i will be seeing a chance slip past my hand, a good girl going away from me... was i rash? i dunno... i dun think i was... i knew what i wanted...

in case u guys are wondering why i deleted my last posts, hmmm, lets just say i find it pointless to voice out my grudges for pple to read... sounds like i am a spoilt brat refusing to come to light with life... so, no more self pitying... i need to get back to the me i was half a year ago... the one full of confidence and strive, the one that isnt afraid of losing and one thaat wins... well, i guess, if i were to move her, to touch her heart, i will have to show her who i was and my true self... this period of sadness has to go away... guess if "u" read this, pls really believe that i will not be going on drinking my life away and smoking my days pass... i promised that i will change and i will... but hope u will really try to trust me and believe in me... =)

i know that u need time also... but just hope... hmmm... it would be ur hand that i will be holding in the future... haha... ok ok... a bit the mushy right? nvm.... haha....

ivan is back!