Unhappy birthday

hmmm, it has been a day since yesterday. i guess yesterday i really disgraced myself in front of all my friends. Well, there is just a thousand and one problems in my head and the most impt person did not come. That really broke my heart. But still, i did not expect myself to puke la, i know partly is because my stomach was close to emptiness, so no choice the wine sets in real fast. I dunno why, but i just felt so lonely all of a sudden. It was as though i am all alone in thihs world. Maybe i am thinking too much, but, well, just felt it that way.

i woke up today, with a mind that tells me to say sorry to the pple who i have troubled yesterday. i dun know why, but just kept smsing the pple. sorry to the pple who thinks i am a bit lo suo today, din mean for that. i wanted to find someone to tok to, but to no avail, failed. Maybe u might be wondering, joan is a good listening ear ma, why not tok to her instead? well, i did ask her out in the afternoon, but just could not start the topic, cause i fear i might break down.

gosh, until now i still dunno what i said last night... i hope i did not blabber nonsense, nor made anyone unhappy or wat. Anyway, happy birthday to myself.