A little something

I was a little bit irritated the other day when my girl told me that if i din chased her, it would have been another girl instead. The reason? all because everyone thinks i treated the other girl too nicely. Somehow it has become a rule, or so called a regulation that once a guy gets attached, he should not have very dear female frens neither should he pay attention to other girls or treat them nicely. Seriously, i dun really care about what other people is goign to say about me, because this my life, i am in control and i dun see the need to comply to some so called rules and regulations of this little conservative and out of time society... i mean, whats wrong with being nice? i can choose who i wanna be nice to right? i dun need to seek permissions anyway... hahaha... wow, my real self is coming back once again...

i guess propably girls lack of the sense of security...

well, girls tend to complicate things while guys tend to simplify things. little things that seem insignificant to us we brush it aside but when it comes to the female party, things arent simple as it is anymore.. to me? i feel that it is perfectly fine to have very very dear frens or someone important to me apart from my own girlfren... as long as i know that the one i love and treasure MOSt s my girlfren, the rest doesnt matter anymore... in any case, joan, if u are reading this, i jus wan to tell u that i had never had feelings for her before... not now not ever... the only thing that i have is brotherly and sisterly relationship.. i am jus assuming a role as a guardian angel to protect her but it is u, joan that i will giv my life to... i dedicate myself to u and u r the girl that i love... the only girl... i mean, if i had wanted i would have been a two timing goody bastard... but i am not... because i like u and thats why i choose u to be my girlfren not others... pls know where is my stand ya...

love u always and ever... ivan