once upon a time.....

i have come to terms that things that i write over here would always come into public scrutinies, irregardless whether is it on frens, studies or religion. maybe closing down this blog would have done me much more benefits and save me more troubles, but upon further thoughts, i decided against it. why is tht so? well, this would be a place for me to rant, yeah, rant and rant and rant. lol...

withdrawing from the guard of honor was a painful decision, but lest i ponder over the fact tht if i do not withdraw things might turn out to be worse than i could expect for my bgr relationship. am i losing stability? maybe, i think so... lately my stress level is suffocating me... i dun even wish to think about any religion stuff anymore. it dawn on me tht whatever happens out there is no longer within my control anymore. i do not need to conform myself to any society set boundaries cause in the first lace i do not even wan to comply or concur. however at the same tiem i have to restrict myself so as not to step on the toes of my love ones. Hard time...

i received an unpleasant surprise from my one of fren recently. he posted my assumed to be true history out in his blog and said tht my gf does not wan to be his part time gf. the part tht really irks me was at least half of the facts was wrong and after consulting my gf, i managed to clear up some unnecessary misunderstandings. ito a certain extent, i tot of myself as a complete idiot. why is tht so? reason being recently i got to know tht this fren of mine is troubled, and so i asked my gf to go out and have a good chat with him... i even told my own girl tht it is ok to sacrifice our time, most impt is to help him out. unfortunately, things did not fall int he right way. instead of using common intellect to understand the situation, he blamed it on me, thinking tht it is me who stopped my gf from going out with him. i cant help to think tht this man is pretty dumb in a way. my gf, with her hectic schedule only has time for me in the night, and we dun even have the time to spare for movies and shopping or even an outing. yet this fren thinks we are enjoying and does not use his brain to think of how busy my gf was. i dun impose any restriction on my gf, she is free to go out anytime and where ever she wans. so bro, read this clearly, she doesnt need to seek my consent over anything and if she tells u she is not free u jolly well believe it cause she is studying and busy with her religion, projects and tuition. if u do not wish to acknowledge the fact tht a girl can be so busy, so be it, find someone else and stop grudging like a spoilt child. I NEVER ONCE TOLD HER NOT TO GO OUT WITH U BEFORE! MARK MY WORDS!

anyway, tht aside, i guess it is high time i need to get some fitness back. miss those days where i am fit and healthy. on the lighter note, i am going to ord in less than six months time!! YESH!! the day of freedom is approaching. I can smell the scent of books and lecture halls for it will be soon for me to step into SIM for my studies!! haha... adios folks...